I am doing OK now, but I can definitely relate to having crappy times in my life. Getting hit by car, demotion at work, could not find a job in my field after getting a degree. Had to take some crappy jobs early, but I did some things that I had to do, but did not want to do. Eventually I took a high paying job, only to lose it 12 weeks later. Took a temporary job in the meantime, and found something that paid almost double the "high paying job". Even so, nowI had a house, good job, and I am single (open to marriage, but not actively seeking), there were times of unhappiness. I learned quickly that money doesn't do it; if all I am doing is working and trying to get more, what's the point? I have learned to become a well-rounded person. I am a drummer at two different churches (music is my passion; I could not imagine not having music). I am active in church, and I have hope. I've experienced loss, but not in the same way that some of you guys have. I know it's coming, and I am not looking forward to it. Like everyone else, I prayed for 93's daughter; I prayed for a miracle. My Grandmother has cancer now; we prayed for a miracle. It's in these cases that I cannot understand why.
Macy, I read what happened to you; a similar thing, although not quite as extreme happened to me. It's especially bad when you're offered a job, then someone reneges on the offer. When I got offered this job and this salary, I almost didn't believe it (make that, I didn't believe it, but hey, what could it hurt?). Even when I started working, I still thought that it wasn't real. It was only when I got my first paycheck did I realize it was real. Getting burned a few times makes you question everything. One thing we do know, some people suck, but there are so many good people when push comes to shove. As an INTJ (Melancholy Choleric), I am typically a loner, but I have learned to be much more social (I'm more of an extraverted introvert, if that makes sense); I find that we are meant to be social beings, and are not meant to go through life alone. But then again, getting burned by crappy people will make someone far less social.
