Praying cardfan198 for His hand to be upon you, for His intercession into your health needs, mental and physical,I pray for your total and complete healing and recovery, in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord Snd Savior.... I pray... Amen
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Praying cardfan198 for His hand to be upon you, for His intercession into your health needs, mental and physical,I pray for your total and complete healing and recovery, in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord Snd Savior.... I pray... Amen
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Praying for you! I have struggled a little with depression in the past and find that I play games less during those times. Many of the modern games have so much going on as far as systems, progression and content etc it can be overwhelming and more like a chore for me than actually being enjoyable. I took the longest break from gaming in the last 25 years a couple of months ago. Have been working out more. Slowly getting back into gaming a little. Hang in there you will get through this!!!
Hoping you find the path that leads you to the light.
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Hope you are doing better cardfan. Believers need to remember, "to whom much is given, much will be required."
2 years ago i was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. Not to the point you are struggling but still enough were sleep, work, personal life, etc. was all effected.
i saw a psychiatrist and also a therapist. what someone else said about the the sun and vitamin d is real. i had a vitamin d disorder because i was indoors all the time with work. getting outdoors more has helped...of course that along with the medication and therapy. also my therapist and i developed a plan to help me manage my anxiety and it's stuff i still practice today. either do something physical to get the hormones in your body and brain moving or do something that requires you to think.
i also am an avid gamer and struggled to enjoy games or play them for long. i love movies as well and couldn't enjoy them. to get back to that, i had to get to a point where my brain was literally exhausted. basically i had to create a new normal for myself and my brain. i used card games to play myself. using my hands and brain helped. i also did puzzles. all of that helped me to retrain my brain.
i'm not saying to do all of these but at the point were i was, i was willing to try anything. you sound like me with your love of gaming.
i saw a psychiatrist and also a therapist. what someone else said about the the sun and vitamin d is real. i had a vitamin d disorder because i was indoors all the time with work. getting outdoors more has helped...of course that along with the medication and therapy. also my therapist and i developed a plan to help me manage my anxiety and it's stuff i still practice today. either do something physical to get the hormones in your body and brain moving or do something that requires you to think.
i also am an avid gamer and struggled to enjoy games or play them for long. i love movies as well and couldn't enjoy them. to get back to that, i had to get to a point where my brain was literally exhausted. basically i had to create a new normal for myself and my brain. i used card games to play myself. using my hands and brain helped. i also did puzzles. all of that helped me to retrain my brain.
i'm not saying to do all of these but at the point were i was, i was willing to try anything. you sound like me with your love of gaming.
Praying you get better soon. Jesus is the greatest answer to all our problem. Just open up your heart to him and ask him to be your Lord and Savior and he will bring peace into your life. Read his word and he will work things out things in your life.
Prayers for you cardfan. I would seriously suggest that you stop playing those types of games (first person shooter, COD, stuff like that). Just seems maybe you need to focus on outdoor activities and less stressful brain work.
Haven't posted for a while, but for anyone interested I have been doing better these past couple weeks. Have had some bad days, but more better days than bad. Have taken advice from everyone posted and has helped tremendously. Between you guys, family, friends and my new doctors advice I have had less depressing days. Had to find new doctors because when telling old doctors had been drinking to try and cope with everything they didn't want to treat me anymore. New doctors and family don't condone but understand and are trying to help me with alcohol problem. Want to thank you guys for your prayers and support.
Bro I see a psychiatrist twice a month for PTSD and it helps immensely. But you've got to open up and be 100% honest. It took me a while to do that but when I finally did it made my quality of life skyrocket.
Be careful if they put you on meds. Some work but others can make you have dark thoughts like suicide. We tried alprazolam (Xanax) finally and it worked.
I see my psychiatrist once a week now. I have had a really hard time opening up to him 100%. I don't know why, but it has been really hard for me. I write a lot and am curious if you think would be a good idea about maybe writing it all down and instead of talking maybe letting him read if I could open up on paper all the way? Yes they have put me on meds. I have dealt with suicidal thoughts for past 3 years and have been hospitalized twice the past year. I do have an emergency number saved in my phone that have called several times to help me. Have went through the phase of self harm as well. Pretty embarrassing for me but my arms are covered in scars because of it. Wear long sleeves most times because of it.
Hey man, it took me months to let out stuff I'd been keeping bottled up. Months. It's a vulnerable situation you put yourself in. You've got to get comfortable with him or her. I was ashamed at some of the **** that happened in Iraq and I didn't want him to think I was a murderer. But I gradually told him everything and I'm so glad I did. I got a piece of my soul back.
Journals are a great idea and keeping one will help. But in my experience I had to verbally communicate with him and as terrifying as it is I think you should too. Having said that, try showing him the journal because that's a step in the right direction. That may be the way you have to do it.
Don't be embarrassed. You're seeking help and that's what matters. So you were suicidal before meds? If so SSRis are dangerous and I hope you're not taking those. They can exacerbate the suicidal thoughts. I won't take them. But they work for others so maybe they can for you.
I kept a loaded gun under my pillow. I was so screwed up I took the safety off and pulled the trigger with a gun to my head. I usually keep a round chambered but miraculously there wasn't one chambered. That moment changed my life so I sought treatment. Thank God I did.
It gets better bro. Don't isolate yourself or dwell on dark thoughts. My legs are scarred horrendously from an IED so I never wear shorts. Just like with your wearing long sleeves to cover yours. Don't worry about it. That's the past. Again don't be embarrassed. Every human on earth has insecurities.
If you don't mind me asking, do you have any of the 10 different personality disorders? Because they would explain why you feel that way. I had zero entering the Army and after 3 deployments I came home and developed 3 of them. Did your psychiatrist identify any with you?
You live in Kentucky? Oh and smoking bud with it is perfect.
I had suicidal thoughts before being put on medications never actually tried until was on medications. I don't think any of my meds are SSRis I take Abilify, Hydroxyzine and Effexor. I hope none of these are those types of meds I take your word that they are dangerous. If they are let me know so can talk to doctor to switch. They had me on Ambien and Klonopin as well, but when telling new doctor was drinking they took me off them. I am bad about isolating myself I have done it for weeks at a time. My psychiatrist hasn't diagnosed me with any of them that I know of. They have diagnosed me with Major Depression Disorder, schizophrenia and I have really bad anxiety problems. Thanks for your service and sorry for all of the problems and injuries you have gotten serving the Country.
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Good luck and best wishes.
There's always hope and you never know the future, hurting yourself also hurts those people around you who care about you. Maybe you think people don't care, but they do, I care (just some dude on the internet) and so do these other random people on the internet responding to you wishing you well.
Watch your thoughts/feelings and guard them, maybe think of all the times in the past you thought something that was wrong or your feelings on some issue changed and try to think differently... I think that's what they try to accomplish with cognitive behavioral therapy, I dunno I'm just some dude on the internet not a therapist, but that's my advice. YOu are a human being and you have unique value.
There's always hope and you never know the future, hurting yourself also hurts those people around you who care about you. Maybe you think people don't care, but they do, I care (just some dude on the internet) and so do these other random people on the internet responding to you wishing you well.
Watch your thoughts/feelings and guard them, maybe think of all the times in the past you thought something that was wrong or your feelings on some issue changed and try to think differently... I think that's what they try to accomplish with cognitive behavioral therapy, I dunno I'm just some dude on the internet not a therapist, but that's my advice. YOu are a human being and you have unique value.
Thanks for your kind and inspiring words. Dealing with this has taken a toll on my family and friends, but they stand by my side through the good and bad times.
And for that you are Blessed...praying for your mental and physical health cardfan... May His hand be upon you...in His name, I pray. Amen.
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Card fan, I recommend getting involved in a service project - feeding the homeless, building houses with Habitat for Humanity, working with tutoring folks in literacy, etc. You have a purpose and God wants to heal you completely so that you can fulfill that purpose. Get involved in an active church and start cultivating relationships with people who are giving you healthy, loving support.
I'll check if any of those medications are. I would again point out that coming on an anonymous forum and admitting these things has guts and shows you want help.
Isolating yourself is the worst possible thing you can do, trust me. Study's have shown a markedly higher suicide rate, as well as losing about 10 years on your life, from people who isolate. Im also speaking this from experience. I was out in 2011 and severely isolated myself. That's when I put the gun to my head. I fantasized about it And how to do it. If my parents hadn't been smart enough to see what was going on I wouldn't be here.
So you def have one of the 10 with social anxiety disorder. Major depression disorder is rare and a serious diagnosis. I've heard nothing but bad things about it. And schizophrenia sucks bad from what I've heard.
I can't believe they kicked you off if your medicine because of your honesty. Did the klonopin help? Like the xanax I take that works, klonopin is also a barbiturate. It's just Xanax hits you immediate but don't last long. Klonopin is slower to hit bust last longer. I've read so many horror stories about ambien. I took one once and hallucinated bad.
Just keep working man a and you'll get better. Font ever give up. Ever.
Yes the Klonopin helped especially when having panic attacks. They were going to remove me off the rest of my meds if continued to drink. I had nothing but bad experience with old doctor and psychiatrist. They had me on buspar as well did not like the way that medication made me feel at all. Asked doctor to take me off it and refused and said part of treatment. Told the psychiatrist I was burning myself I have huge burn scars all over my arms. Not kidding the psychiatrist said well at least your not cutting yourself. Went to different doctor and psychiatrist after that. Been going to new doctors and psychiatrist for about 4 months now. I didn't like the Ambien either made me hallucinate bad as well. Yes schizophrenia sucks I will be talking to someone and just all of a sudden bust out crying for no reason at all. Would even happen at work. Can't control it. I have a lot of trust issues with family and friends because of my schizophrenia. Something my new psychiatrist has been helping me understand that a lot of the feelings I have is paranoia. I do have some times where I don't have any symptoms going on from it.
Praying for you brother.
To ad to the above;
1. don't drink
2. don't smoke
3. take all your medications that you are currently on prescription and over the counter and let a Dr reassess them.
My uncle did this and his depression and sleepless nights went away.
4. do something nice for someone everyday even though you may not get a thank you back. Just knowing you may change someone's day without even knowing is a great feeling.
The most important thing you've done is reached out and not stayed silent. It takes a lot of courage to do that, I know from experience. God bless you, you're not alone. Prayers for peace for you.
Hang in there @cardfan198. You never know how your life can change or maybe you will inspire a needed change in someone else.
Been having a bad night tonight. Mom has been in my room by my bed for past couple of hours making sure I am OK. I have the best family. Have been feeling kind of guilty though. Feel like I am making their life harder.
God bless you cardfan 198. Your family loves you and cares for you and only want to see you get better.
It is hard for them because things are so hard for you right now.
I found out a long time ago that we can never find real peace in this life until we get to know the Prince of Peace, and that is Jesus Christ.
Jesus will never leave you alone and will always be there for you in these difficult times when you need help the most.
I still have more than my share of " bad nights" where my mind won't slow down and sleep can't be had. In those times I call out the name of Jesus, often multiple times, and at the very name of Jesus, every demon and every evil spirit has to flee from me.
I urge you to hang in there. Think about all the love your family and others have for you. God loves you, too. Call on Jesus. He is our hope for a better future.
It is hard for them because things are so hard for you right now.
I found out a long time ago that we can never find real peace in this life until we get to know the Prince of Peace, and that is Jesus Christ.
Jesus will never leave you alone and will always be there for you in these difficult times when you need help the most.
I still have more than my share of " bad nights" where my mind won't slow down and sleep can't be had. In those times I call out the name of Jesus, often multiple times, and at the very name of Jesus, every demon and every evil spirit has to flee from me.
I urge you to hang in there. Think about all the love your family and others have for you. God loves you, too. Call on Jesus. He is our hope for a better future.
Thank you. I am also not helping with my drinking either. Not making excuses but when I drink it seems easier for me to deal with my health problems. Fearing am becoming dependent on it to deal with it. I sneak alcohol all the time. Hide it so family doesn't find it. I know it frustrating and worrisome for family.
Have been threatened to be kicked out because of my alcohol problem. I get more suicidal at times from drinking. Know not what she wants to do. Just hard for her to deal with.