I stated that you seem to have a personality disorder, manifesting itself, at least in part, in taking pleasure in the discomfort/pain/sadness of others.
And you responded "That is correct."
The first step is to acknowledge that you have a problem. Now you need to get it treated. Based on other concerning character traits, I'd say a prolonged stay in a mental hospital would be necessary for you.
I have a live outside the internet.
#Literate
I WOULDN’T scramble to chase them. I’d simply follow them and defend myself to a new crowd.
So you'd scramble to chase them. You're not defending yourself - you're just making yourself look much worse.
Nobody here cares about you. They just want you gone, because you're a stalker and a troll. If you were gone, everyone else would be happy. If you were mentally healthy, you'd want to find people who shared your common interests, and who liked and/or respected you, and you would talk with them ... instead, you've stated that your goal is to follow people around to make their lives miserable.
You justify this by saying, like a wounded child, that they were mean first. Let's, for a moment, say they were ... let's say they "attacked" you first, completely unprovoked. OK, and? A normal, functional human, who didn't have a severe personality disorder, would tell them to eff off, and then he'd go find a place where he was accepted. They wouldn't stick around to try to give them back what they thought they'd gotten ... and then keep following them around to make sure their lives were hell.
You also try to claim that, for you, this is nothing more than a time-filler while at work ... but for the others who were mean to you, this is their life. OK, so let's assume this is accurate. You claim that when the other board was shut down, it ruined their lives. That's a pretty big deal. To have one's life ruined. That's a serious thing. And, if you were sane, and if this was really just some meaningless, throwaway diversion from work for you ... and you knew that your actions resulted in ruining the lives of others ... that would make you a phucking lunatic.
Now, this is taking your word for it, and looking at it in the light most favorable to you ... and you still come off like a friggin criminal, mentally insane whacko.
Imagine what it looks like if we take their perspective into account fully? Or, agree on some middle ground. Imagine how much worse you look.
You need to seek help ... legitimately, you need to go find support for your mental issues ... before you harm yourself or others. You literally tried to describe your actions to put yourself in the best light, and you still came off as a textbook psycho stalker. Get help.
