I am sorry you experienced this and I also thank God you are alive as well. When you died for 5 minutes, was it black?
God knows our time and we don't. Must be a reason why you're still here. Your family, and maybe other things. The main thing is repentance and turn towards Jesus again. Read that bible friend!
Oh I renewed my faith in 2022 vociferously. I hated God for a long time because of what a pastors 18 year old son did to me when I was 4 and 5 with another child. The father caught him finally and essentially said we'd go to hell if we spoke out. I kept that secret for 30 years man. The other child, her name was Samantha RIP, took her own life at 14. But I read random verses every night and my own personal favorites. I get on my knees and pray every night and I put my prayers for myself last. I thank the Lord every morning I wake up.
The thing about that 5 minutes is there was no color. It was just pure feelings of peace like I've NEVER felt before. Like I've said, I was light as a feather. The weight of all my worldly problems, my body weight, was gone. A floating sensation if you will. There was no fear, no nothing really. Just peace. I wish I could tell you there was a bright light or that Jesus appeared and spoke to me but he didn't. But it wasn't my time. But that feeling will never be forgotten. My time could be today, tomorrow or next week and although I dearly enjoy being alive, my fear of death has diminished drastically. Best I can answer that brother.