We are poor offensively unless you look at the actual stats. We're a weak team unless you notice our ranking. We can't win at Texas unless you look at the score.
Get treatment and go see a doctor. Maybe ask about a GLP-1 medication, the ones now used for weight loss. There's some indication that these drugs curb alcohol and drug cravings. There's also likely some other factors urging you to drink besides just wanting to feel drunk. Seek out specialists...